The Brighter Side

I have been told that my blog reflects a sour attitude about things and that it sounds as though I am a little depressed. I suppose that I do whine quite a bit here, but it was never my intention to convey a sense of depression. I am quite happy with my life right now. There are a lot of things going for me right now, such as:

- Great friends who are there for me when I need them the most
- A wonderful church that has reached out to me through so many people
- My wonderful family who helps me out so much
- A great job that started a little dull, but is quickly becoming much more exciting
- My own house in which I can relax and escape the business of the day

So, while I may complain (which, I must admit, I am quite good at), I have a lot of good going for me. There are certain lonely aspects of my life that I would like to change, but sitting around complaining about them will not change anything. I must get out of here once and a while and greet the world head on. I also place my trust in the Lord that good things are on their way. I will wait patiently for them to come. Until then, my dear reader, I look towards the bright side of life…

PS – For curiosity’s sake, if you do read this, could you leave a comment? I am curious to know if anyone is actually reading this. Thanks.

Being Sick

Ok, it’s now my turn to whine about being sick. During the day on Thursday, I knew that something was coming on, as the whole left side of my face began to dry out. I then developed quite the sore throat that night. Yesterday, I woke up and felt like I had been hit by a large truck. Couple that with half a day of faculty meetings, and I was not a happy camper come last night. I took a shot of Niquil (best stuff on the earth, by the way) and passed out around 8:00pm. Was feeling a little better today but went to Wal-Mart and got some good medicine. The kind you apparently now have to show your driver’s license to purchase. Oh well, I showed my ID and was in Sudafed heaven for a while. As I write this, I can feel my recent shot of Niquil starting to kick in, so I am now off to pass out yet again. Here’s to hoping that I kick this cold by tomorrow. Oh well…thanks for listening to me whine.

I…Am a Man…In a Box…

Ask and ye shall receive, I suppose. After all my whining yesterday about not having much to do at work, suddenly math assessments seem to fall into my lap. I offered to assist with getting a list of students that need extra help in math and soon I found myself pulling students out of classes left and right and testing them to see how well they can do math. It is frustrating and downright sad to watch some of the students sit there and struggle with these math tests. Tomorrow I get to look forward to watching two girls take the second part of a test they did poorly on today. Oh what fun. I can’t wait until I can actually do some good and help them improve in math, rather than watching them fail at tests.

On the more personal side, I continue to be a chicken when it comes to matters of the heart. I choose to send text messages rather than call people. When I do call people, I hope and pray for a voice mail to pick up so I can leave a quick message. I’m not sure when I became locked in this shell of chickening out of every social contact, but I wish it never would have happened. I am trying my best to break out of this box, but it seems the more I try, the more I am stuck. I need to branch out socially or I may just go insane here in this house alone in the quiet. If you have any solutions to this, dear reader, please offer them. I am no help to myself. I am the one keeping myself here…

Life and Its Many Wonders

Today work continued on as it has for the past week. I am currently working as a teacher assistant in an elementary reading room and as such, work has largely been a lot of testing students and filling out paperwork. My passion for teaching does not include large amounts of paperwork or sitting around with very little to do. I am beginning to yearn to begin teaching my small reading groups. But, I know I must be patient before the real fun starts. I’m just feeling rather worthless there right now, even though I know I shouldn’t. I’m sorry to complain, but this seems like a safe place to do so.

Outside of work, life goes on as quiet as it has been. I am still adjusting to life on my own. Having gone from a house of six, to a dorm hall of over 50, back to the house of six, and now to a house all by myself, I find the need to adjust to a quieter life. I finally got all of my stuff unpacked, which involved finally vanquishing the pile of junk in my living room. Now I look around my clean house wondering what to do next. I need to find some company or get out to enjoy life a little more. I have become something of a hermat and I don’t like it. I go to church every Sunday, but I feel the need to interact more with people and get off my butt. I will be working on that…

So, my dear reader, life goes on in the world of Chris, as exciting as it is. Perhaps you are having more fun and excitement thatn I, or perhaps not. But life must go on for us all…

Here I am….

Well, here I go again. I have attempted both blogging and journaling in the past with little success. I write for a while, but soon give up, either thinking that nobody reads these things, or just that the whole thing is pointless. I’m not sure what is spurring me to begin writing again, but who knows? Maybe this will work out to be a regular thing.

I think there is some peace in putting thoughts into words. I have attempted to write a book for a few years now and I find I can think about it much better if I empty some thoughts onto a page, rather than keeping them all bottled up in my head. Life is a lot like that. If I keep everything bottled up without talking to anyone about the things going on in my life, I tend to reach a point where I explode. I guess this blog is a way to avoid such explosions.

So, here is to you, my dear reader, for putting up with my rantings. While I have only begn to write, I am sure I will ramble on and on from time to time, complain about things often, and simply expell thoughts from my mind onto this blog. I thank you, reader, for taking the time to read this and hopefully I will come to know the joys of blogging as I continue to write about my quiet, often lonesome life.